今天是国内的１０月３０日，妈妈，生日快乐！我知道，我在国外的境况会牵动我的家人，我很好，所以你要放心。妈妈也要乖，让女儿放心啊！你要照顾好自己，注意身体，没有我在旁边捣乱，要轻松不少吧，所以别让自己太操劳了。不过，也别总一个人呆着，和家人多聚聚，我现在是知道家庭的团聚是多么珍贵，你们在一起热闹，彼此照应，我才放心啊。
　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　 萌萌爱你！　

It is a song which always strengthens me with passion, zeal and victory. 

圣洁的敬拜                                     The purest worship

燃烧我们的心，来行走这地        We will march on the land with burning hearts

带着祷告，宣告盼望                    We proclaim “Jesus is Lord”

靠主耶稣圣名，行出真理            With never ending prayer, we take this land

步步燃出，圣洁火焰                    Raise the banner declaring hope

圣洁的敬拜                                    Give Him your worship

爱主的精兵                                    The purest worship

勇敢迈出福音的脚步                    With every song, fill the streets with joy

向世界宣告，黑暗变荣耀日        Declare His glory, the favour of our God

瘸腿要跳舞，瞎眼得看见            The lame will dance, and the blind will see

洁净这地土，复兴要来临            Let revival come, come down from heaven

不畏惧黑暗权势                            We believe and speak His name

坚立于救恩磐石                            As we stand upon the Rock

齐声向全地宣告                            We declare to all nations

主的大能和救恩              Jesus Christ Son of God

    希望赶快熬过这段黑暗的日子。论文，论文，写文章让我觉得恶心。事情太多，压的我很吃力，脑袋不停的转，很多事赶着我。失眠有一个多月了，中间有过一段无比低谷的时候，从死亡里被拉出来，开心放松了一段时间，可当又一次坐在电脑前，面对巨山般的学习任务，我慌了，我很想逃。然而，我知道我不会，不可能，不能被打败。所以 ，坚持，爸爸说了，坚持就是胜 利！

    盼望曙光，也是我们该说再见的时候。一年半，一晃就过去。深挚的友谊才慢慢浮出水面，于是就当道别。五年前我是怎样？刚刚上大学，放下了所有沉重的负担，高考结束，作业不再成为噩梦，一切都是新的开始。我很兴奋。十年前，还在上初中，挺郁闷，那时的我和现在的我完全是两个不同的人。突然发现，我对过去的记忆如此模糊，过去的那个我，似乎也是那样陌生。我相信，人都在成长，人都有无限的潜力，人都有美好的善良，我感恩，我在成长，探索着我的潜力。那些曾经出现在我生命中的人，他们，我希望他们幸福。

我们爱，因神先爱我们，

We will love, because He loved us first,

虽你我不一样，我们一路唱，走往祝福的方向。

God made us not the same but we are together to sing a song of love.

我们爱，因神先爱我们，

We will love, because He loved us first,

心再坚强也不要独自飞翔，只要微笑，只要原谅，有你爱的地方就是天堂。

No matter what we will choose to stay together, so we will smile and we will forgive, for your love will bring us heaven on earth.

    终于在歌声中领受了盼望已久的“赞美之泉”Steam of Praise。他们已经有很多新歌，在国内时，我们唱的很多都是他们的歌曲。我正是在这些触动人心的歌曲中，经历神的同在与触摸；正是在这些歌曲中，同声敬拜赞美神。

一直喜欢这首歌

“差遣我”

“Send me, Lord”

主告诉我，如何献上我的生命，带希望入人群中；

Tell me oh Lord, how you want me to give your life, to the world where there is no hope;

主告诉我，如何付出我的关怀，将温暖带入世界。

Tell me oh Lord, how you want me to give your love, to the world where love went cold.

我看到灵魂中的忧伤，孤独中人的心在角落颤抖，

Do you see all the people sinking down? Don’t you see people aching in the darkness alone?

差遣我，差遣我，我愿付出我所有，差遣我到需要你的人群中，

Send me Lord, send me Lord, I am willing to give all. Send me out to those who need your hand.

充满我，充满我，用你爱来充满我，再一次紧握他们的手。

Fill me Lord, fill me Lord, fill me with your love for all, reach your hand to hold them once again

时间总是如此残酷，我想留下岁月和童年，想留下那些单纯美好的记忆。

然而，在回首间都已物是人非。

一直不想长大，直到现在，依旧有那无法隔断的情结。

今天，看到一个朋友的照片，竟完全没有认出来。

有些小小惆怅，原来我们都在长大、改变。

现在，耳边总是有无数的声音谈婚论嫁，

我突然意识到,原来我早已不再是那群孩子中的一员。

长大,如贼般偷偷溜进我的生命。

今天，参加了"如何有效找工作"的讲座。

我早该意识到，我已长大，

不能永远在学校里无忧无虑，只顾读书和朋友玩乐；

我早该意识到，我已成人，

许多责任和重担，许多我曾经想都不愿想，或是不敢想的事，我要直面，我要担当。

我知道我不是Peter Pan，

我知道我不能飞向Neverland。

总之，还是要长大，还是要成人。

我真的，真的需要更多的勇气。

Ruth went to her mail box and there was only one letter. She picked it up and looked at it before opening, but then she looked at the envelope again. There was no stamp, no postmark, only her name and address. She read the letter:

Dear Ruth:
I`m going to be in your neighborhood Saturday afternoon and I'd like to stop by for a visit.
Love Always,
Jesus
Her hands were shaking as she placed the letter on the table. 'Why would the Lord want to visit me? I'm nobody special. I don't have anything to offer.' With that thought, Ruth remembered her empty kitchen cabinets. 'Oh my goodness, I really don't have anything to offer. I'll have to run down to the store and buy something for dinner.' She reached for her purse and counted out its contents. Five dollars and forty cents. Well, I can get some bread and cold cuts, at least.' She threw on her coat and hurried out the door. A loaf of French bread, a half-pound of sliced turkey, and a carton of milk...leaving Ruth with grand total twelve cents to last her until Monday. Nonetheless, she felt good as she headed home, her meager offerings tucked under her arm. ‘Hey lady, can you help us, lady?' Ruth had been so absorbed in her dinner plans, she hadn't even noticed two figures huddled in the alleyway. A man and a woman, both of them dressed in little more than rags. 'Look lady, I ain't got a job, ya know, and my wife and I have been living out here on the street, and, well, now it's getting cold and we're getting kinda hungry and, well, if you could help us. Lady, we'd really appreciate it.' Ruth looked at them both.They were dirty, they smelled bad and frankly, she was certain that they could get some kind of work if they really wanted to. 'Sir, I'd like to help you, but I'm a poor woman myself..All I have is a few cold cuts and some bread, and I'm having animportant guest for dinner tonight and I was planning on serving thatto Him.' 'Yeah, well, okay lady, I understand. Thanks anyway.' The man put his arm around the woman's shoulders, turned and headed back into the alley. As she watched them leave, Ruth felt a familiar
twinge in her heart. 'Sir, wait!' The couple stopped and turned as she ran down the alley after them. 'Look, why don't you take this food. I'll figure out something else to serve my guest.' She handed the man her grocery bag. 'Thank you lady. Thank you very much!' 'Yes, thank you!' It was the man's wife, and Ruth could see now that she was shivering 'You know, I've got another coat at home. Here, why don't you take this one.' Ruth unbuttoned her jacket and slipped it over the
woman's shoulders. Then smiling, she turned and walked back to the street...without her coat and with nothing to serve her guest. ‘Thank you lady! Thank you very much!' Ruth was chilled by the time she reached her front
door, and worried too. The Lord was coming to visit and she didn't have anything to offer Him. She fumbled through her purse for the door key. But
as she did, she noticed another envelope in her mailbox. 'That's odd. The mailman doesn't usually come twice in one day.'

Dear Ruth:
It was so good to see you again. Thank you for the lovely meal. And thank you, too, for the beautiful coat.
Love Always,
Jesus

The air was still cold, but even without her coat, Ruth no longer noticed.

Connectedness

Things happen for a reason. I am sure of it. I am sure of it because in my soul I know that we are all connected. Yes, we are individuals, responsible for our own judgements and in possession of our own free will, but nonetheless we are part of something larger. Some may call it the collective unconscious. Others may label it spirit or life force. But whatever my word of choice, I gain confidence from knowing that we are not isolated from one another or from the earth and the life on it. This feeling of connectedness implies certain responsibilities. If we are all part of a larger picture, then we must not harm others because we will be harming ourselves. We must not exploit because we will be exploiting ourselves. My awareness of these responsibilities creates my value system. I am considerate, caring, and accepting. Certain of the unity of humankind, I am a bridge builder for people of different cultures. Sensitive to the invisible hand, I can give others comfort that there is a purpose beyond our humdrum lives. The exact articles of my faith will depend on my upbringing and my culture, but my faith is strong. It sustains me and my close friends in the face of life’s mysteries.

Belief

If I possess a strong Belief theme, I have certain core values that are enduring. These values vary from one person to another, but ordinarily my belief theme causes I to be family-oriented, altruistic, even spiritual, and to value responsibility and high ethics—both is myself and others. These core values affect my behaviour in many ways. They give my life meaning and satisfaction; in my view, success is more than money and prestige. They provide me with direction, guiding me through the temptations and distractions of life toward a consistent set of priorities. This consistency is the foundation for all my relationships. My friends call me dependable. “I know where you stand,” they say. My belief makes me easy to trust. It also demands that I find work that meshes with my values. My work must be meaningful; it must matter to me. And guided by mu belief theme it will matter only if it gives me a chance to live out my values.

Empathy

I can sense the emotions of those around me. I can feel what they are feeling as though their feelings are my own. Intuitively, I am able to see the world through their eyes and share their perspective. I do not necessarily agree with each person’s perspective. I do not necessarily feel pity for each person’s predicament—this would be sympathy, not empathy. I do not necessarily condone the choices each person makes, but I do understand. This instinctive ability to understand is powerful. I hear the unvoiced questions. I anticipate the need. Where others grapple for words, I seem to find the phrases to express their feelings—to themselves as well as to others. I help them give voice to their emotional life. For all these reasons other people are drawn to me.

Positivity

I am generous with praise, quick to smile, and always on the lookout for the positive in the situation. Some call me light-hearted. Others just wish that their glass were as full as mine seems to be. But either way, people want to be around me. Their world looks better around me because my enthusiasm is contagious. Lacking my energy and optimism, some find their world drab with repetition or, worse, heavy with pressure. I seem to find a way to lighten their spirit. I inject drama into every project. I celebrate every achievement. I find ways to make everything more exciting and more vital. Some cynics may reject my energy, but I am rarely dragged down. My positivity won’t allow it. Somehow I can’t quite escape my conviction that it is good to be alive, that work can be fun, and that no matter what setbacks, one must never lose one’s sense of humour.

Developer

I see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all I see. In my view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And I am drawn toward people for this very reason. When I interact with others, my goal is to help them experience success. I look for ways to challenge them. I devise interesting experience that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while I am on the lookout for the signs of growth—a new behaviour learned of modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of  “flow” where previously there were only halting steps. For I these small increments—invisible to some—are clear signs of potential being realized. These signs of growth in others are my fuel. They bring me strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek me out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that my helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to me.

坐在电影院里，看的是贾樟柯的最新电影《24城记》。人很多，感觉很奇妙，在一个英语国家的电影院，观看反映中国社会变迁的中国电影。影片很感人，纪实与虚构交错，演绎了一个时代的结束与新时代的开始。

电影的每一幕，特别是那拥挤熟悉的街道，热闹杂乱的家属大院，还有讲中国话的中国老百姓，一切都令我无比想念我的家乡。很喜欢贾樟柯拍摄的手法，镜头前安静又有些尴尬地站着最最普通的人，没有任何语言，然而一个个故事正蕴藏其中。

那个东北女人在空无一人的公交车里颠簸一路，诉说着自己千山万水跋涉来到大西 南，献出了自己的青春又被无情地抛弃，多少年下来面对无法启齿的艰辛生活一直没有放弃——常见的人，常见的事，常见的话，却深深地击中了我，在黑暗中，我的眼泪也止不住的留下。虽然我未曾经历，但也目睹着许多长辈纷纷下岗，经历着生活巨大的变迁。我甚至不知道该用怎样的文字来形容那共鸣，我们的经历完全没有什么相似之处，但那种为不可知的命运付出高昂代价的疼痛感， 是我们每个人都经历过的。

我很好奇，从西方人的眼中又是怎样看待中国的。我很钦佩贾樟柯代表的第六代导演如此真是的向世界展现中国面容，比起那些在电影工业中赫赫有名的所谓大腕导演，拍的一堆华而不实的电影，美其名曰传播中国文化，这些在中国本土小众的电影却成为如此重要的窗口，让更多人了解中国和中国人。

God, I will trust in you. Things I don’t understand, I will trust in you for giving me such clues to what it looks like beyond myself and beyond the physical realm. Everything I do, I show that I am a true ministry of God, patiently endure troubles and hardship. I am willing to do whatever it is required of me to advance the kingdom. I humble myself under your mighty hand, knowing that no matter what I face in a way of hardship, there is grace, there is something deeper than what I can see, and that is what I seek—your heart, it is what I want. Help me, God, to understand the truth of our situation, to not to be asleep to what is really going on, to not falter my true purpose and sell it cheap. I love you, God. In Jesus’ name, Amen.