There is no love, there is no affection. There is no conversation even. There is only physical abuse. He is using me. I am using him. It may come to different reasons. But after all, we are just using each other.
It took long time, to be diligent, to be obedient, to be patient, to hike to the peak with the help of God. But enemy knows so well where that button is. Just a figure touch, I fall, just a second, I fall back into the darkest pit, again.